Tribute To Benny
BENNY OUR BELOVED BOY LEFT US ON AUGUST 2ND 2008 AT THE AGE OF 15 YEARS AND 7 MONTHS.
WE WILL NEVER EVER FORGET THE JOY YOU BROUGHT TO OUR LIVES AND TO OTHERS. REST IN PEACE MY FRIEND UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN WE LOVE YOU.
We are still so very sad-but the good Lord has whispered signs of comfort in so many ways-Many pet lovers who offered sincere words of compassion-especially a beautiful poem from Teresa who read our first guest book entry-The most incredible comfort I received was 11 hours after Benny died in my arms.
I was sitting in church next to a friend of mine who is blind and deaf like Helen Keller. During Mass I like to sign in her hand the different Mass parts. I picked up her hand to tell her the priest was reading the gospel, but her caretaker was being a brat and wouldn't let me sign to my friend-As tears rolled from my eyes, angry at her lack of compassion-I just lost my dog 11 hours ago I stared down at the floor. I noticed that the church's rug was very dirty and there was a stain that looked like a dog's tail. My eyes followed the tail and I saw an amazing vision of Benny smiling at me, wearing a halo! I got nervous when the alter boys came out to offer the sign of peace as they stepped on my Benny's angelic face, but when they left he was still there wearing a halo- If my friends caretaker wasn't there being a brat, i would have missed this moment! I would never have seen this vision, my Benny, smiling, wearing a halo! I left church immediately after communion because I didn't want to talk to anybody.
Still needing to hear the word of God, I drove over to another church that I am affiliated with-by coincidence there was a ministry team there, the service would be all music-music is such a powerful healing tool-the ministry team sang "Amazing Grace" and "In Christ Alone" both songs that were so appropriate for my situation. As it was now time to let the senior home know that Benny would no longer be visiting-the activity's director knew exactly what to say, than again working at a senior home I'm sure she has the misfortune of seeing a lot people entering into eternal rest! But she knew just what to say and made me feel good, I said goodbye and headed for the door yet at that moment, in walked a lady with a golden retriever puppy, a miniature Benny!
I knew this was another sign of God's love for me-The lady approached the front desk and asked if dogs were aloud in the senior home, I sat on the floor as the puppy licked my face and I told the little puppy that he is the new golden retriever of the senior home!Believing this was all a dream and my church vision of Benny meant I was a kook-the next morning I attended daily Mass, I sat in the same spot, this time alone-I looked down at the stained carpet, I saw the dog's tail but no vision-at that time the holy spirit spoke to me, and I knew I wasn't nuts!I was given a gift-a last good bye from my Benny confirming that he is truly an angel and yes the Lord is keeping him in good hands! I thought about the dreadful night and a moment at the emergency vet's office. there was a deaf man there and I had a full conversation with him in sign language.
This would be the first time I used sign-language with anyone other than my church friend.This made me think that the good Lord was telling me to open my eyes, and open my ears and he will be there! After the daily Mass, I decided to run some errands. As I went into Wal-mart I saw a Stuffed animal of a Seasame Street character in one of the claw machines, the kind of machine that you put a quarter in and one in every fifty chances wins you a stuffed animal.I really liked the Seasame Street character so I decided to take a chance-well the metal claw landed directly on a different animal, on the first try-I won a stuffed animal-not the Seasame Street Character but a stuffed animal that had a tag attached to it and on the attached card board tag read "This loveable, huggable, cuddly friend was created just for you to love and cherish for years to come"
I believe that this would be the last stuffed animal that my sweet Benny would retrieve for me! For those of you who lost your best friend and you are grieving too-open up your heart, your eyes and your ears-let the Lord speak to you-and although I feel so empty,eleven days have past, crying has become who I am, and the tears just keep on flowing-I realize that grief is not a process that one should rush through, As I cry I am emptying my bucket, a bucket of pain and loss that will heal if I let myself walk through this sad time-but it's such a comfort to know the Lord has spoken to me because I've opened my eyes and my ears a comfort that will forever last, knowing that yes-Benny is an angel in heaven-as he was once my sweet angel on earth!
DERRICK AND MICHELLE!